Tragedy struck us recently, and I feel like I’ve fallen off the face of the blogging earth. I’ve also had no time to play in the kitchen and really haven’t felt like it. So I feel like I owe you an explanation.
Last Saturday, my best friend lost her husband. It was sudden, it is still unexplained and we are burying him today. He left behind three beautiful children in which I love like my own. He just turned 40. I’ve known him since I was 17.
Obviously I’ve had questions and anger and confusion and more sorrow than I knew possible. This is one of the most significant losses I have experience in my life. They are my family, my best friends and my world.
I miss Joe so much. When I am there at her house, I just keep waiting for his appearance around a corner, a silent smile. I have not grieved like this in a long time, and I don’t know how to breathe these days. But I have to, for her. For Cyndi. For her three beautiful, amazing children.
But then, life keeps going right? And we are supposed to keep moving on. Joe wouldn’t want us to mourn him, he would want us to celebrate him. He is dancing in heaven with God and watching down on all of us, as we learn to adjust to life without him. But I’m not sure how to do that.
There are so many interesting things that have happened lately that I’ve wanted to share with my blog readers.
I even had a few posts scheduled but I pulled them. They just didn’t feel right. Maybe tomorrow. Maybe this weekend. Maybe in a week or so, but definitely soon. I know I need to begin to adjust to life again.
I feel like if I don’t come up for air soon, I’m going to suffocate and while today is going to be so, so hard, the tears can’t stop falling – I also know it will be a bit of closure. Or at least a final chance to say “Goodbye for now, Joe.” He would want that for all of us.
Please keep my best friend Cyndi, her three children and their entire family, friends and support system in your prayers today and in the coming weeks. We all need each other to get through this. The world lost an amazing, generous and giving man. But heaven most definitely gained an angel.
Thank you so much for your love and support.
If you’d like to read about Joe, his obituary is here and it’s AMAZING. I could try to tell you about Joe. He really was just that amazing. BUT, this obituary, written by a friend, says it all.
Now, off to go eat some pancakes drowning in butter and maple syrup because comfort it all I want and the pancakes are begging me to eat them.
I love you all, and I miss you like crazy.