Okay can I just vent for a moment?
I try so hard not to, in fact, I try so hard to be that positive, optimistic person but this time I really just need to vent. I’m going to give you background, but if you don’t care about that, skip to the vent (titled… vent)
So I’m sure if you’ve been following my story at all, you can see that some major changes have taken place in the past six months. And we are temporarily (hopefully) stuck in a very small apartment at the moment. Now, where I came from, was a three bedroom house with a full basement. I had more space than I realized. I went to bed early, and I also got up at the crack of dawn (5:30am-6am) every single morning no matter what day of the week it was. I had a schedule, I had time, I had peace and quiet.
Now, here we are all these months later.
I don’t know what happened to my schedule. It’s gone.
I don’t usually go to bed early anymore. Too much to do. And I still get up early but now it’s more like 6:30-7am which may not seem like a lot less time but that hour made a difference. Really it just meant I could quit sooner during the day.
And peace and quiet? I don’t even know what that is?
The TV is ALWAYS on. People are always talking. And I’m stuck in just over 800 square feet of space. That includes two bedrooms, a living area, a kitchen and 2 bathrooms. Yeah.
Working has become incredibly difficult. I am learning to listen to music to concentrate which is much harder than it sounds. It’s hard to fill out paperwork that you have to concentrate for, with music blaring in your ears. In fact, I’m known to write whatever word was just sung in my ear instead of what I actually meant. I’m queen of multi-tasking but not when it comes to music and serious paperwork.
Really, I am very grateful to be where I am. I am very grateful that life has seen these changes because while they are a pain right now, they are the path to the road I should have taken years and years and years ago. But, in the meantime, I need out of this apartment. Like now. Stat. haha
See, even I can vent and tell you the good stuff too.