You know, I knew it was coming. It was inevitable. Time ticks by and life changes and thing you’re not ready for, show up and you’re just sitting there wondering how you got there.
So is the story of my life.
I’m sitting here staring down graduation for two of my five teenagers.
It isn’t like I didn’t know it was coming. After all, they both turned 18 in 2012, so it was surely coming.
It does not, however, make it any easier. And you really are never prepared for it. See the guy in the pictures here. Hold on, I’ll wait until you look.
This is my son Ryan. I remember the day he was born like it was only a few months ago, and now I am staring into the eyes of an 18 year old man. It’s scary, wonderful and new. I remember holding him up so he wouldn’t fall when he was little. And now he holds me up so I don’t fall. (thanks to my Achilles tendon rupture last year).
He plans to stay close to home after graduation which is better for mom’s heart than one might think. I’m not ready to let go all the way just yet.
But then there’s my daughter Vanessa. I’ve known her since Kindergarten – sweet little six year old. She was Ryan’s best friend. We always joke that they knew my husband and I would fall in love long before we did so they prepared. They were going into 6th grade when we moved in together. I’ll wait while you look at her.
This one? This one’s leaving me. And I’m terrified. And so proud. I had no idea how those two emotions could intertwine and become one. She is property of the US Navy now. She signed her papers just over a month ago. She leaves for boot camp on July 31 and is entering as a Mass Communications Specialist. I can’t even TELL you how much I am going to miss her. She’s my best friend in many ways.
It’s bittersweet. On one hand, you are so proud, so grateful, so in awe of the people they are becoming. And then on the other hand, you are terrified, sad and worried about what they are doing, the choices they are making.
And so begins the count down to graduation. We have the cap and gown, we have the announcements and all we have left is time… such short, precious time.